The Suraj's Blog:: Blogging Since 2009

That forgiveness which I could never gift her I forgave your thousand mistakes just because of your one true steps really improved my life, I couldn’t forgive your small mistakes even in presence of your thousand true steps, because that one small mistake might had destructed me… Well.. These two phrases are different one said on different condition…. Let us look one verse from bible…. For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly father will also forgive you But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your father forgive your trespasses. Mathew 6: 14, 15 From the early stages of my life, I myself was fully aware of these words, and I used to think me myself that yes, I should forgive the every of people of my life who might had hurt me knowingly or unknowingly. But despite being regular in church and being strong in praying, I couldn’t give this particular forgiveness to that sweet gesture of my life. Yes, she was a wave because she was the one to change me ...

diary written on 26th September 2009.... FOR all the friendship u shared, FOR all the ways u cared, FOR all the time u were there YOU were special & beyond compare just wan a tell you, take care time may not be the same again, nor your heart shall be the same again, i wish each days were just as earlier we had spend before if not that, i wish my heart be the same blank as it was before Today, the day of 26th september 2009, as one of the most awaited day of my life from last one year..... yeah, i was waiting for this day wishing i could add some smiles and joy on your most happiest day. those moments spent with you are already marked as one of the most beautiful chapters of my life and i hardly remember any hour in my consciousness where i had not invited you for a talk in my mind and my soul.... i liked calling you as "angel of my life" and u simply accepted the designation which i had given for you. There were even many moments where i had termed you as "aakriti...

जयमसि बाइबलका ती बचनहरुलाई आफ्नो मुखबात अध्यन गर्दा कहिले काही मलाई यस्तो पनि लाग्दथ्यो की के बाइबल का बचन हरु हाम्रो जीवनमा साच्चै पुरा हुन्छन् र? येशुप्रभु हाम्रो संसारमा आएर हामीलाई पाप बात त बचाउनु भयो, तर के मानिषको जीवनमा परिवर्तन हुन्छ र ? स्वर्गबाट आएको बाणीले सावलको रूपलाई पावलमा परिवर्तन गरिदियो अनि पावल आफैमा माहान राज्यको प्रचारमा अघि बढे तर के आजको संसारमा यस्तो हुन सक्छ र? यहाँ येशु को चेलाहरू ले मानिस लाई जीवंत बचन सुनाउन निक्कैनै भेदभाव सहनु परेको छ यस्तो समय मा के यो संभव छ र की हात हतियार बोकेर हिदेको मानिष प्रभु को राज्य मा काम आउन सक्छ के हजूरहरुसंग कुनै यस्तो उधारण छ? मसंग छ । अनि यसलाई पढेर तपाईहरु मा पनि परिवर्तन आउने छ

for my pari.. look at my eye.... remembering you, my pari,one who showed me way in darkness my eyes followed you, my heart, and so brain, to be fearless i forgot pain in my life after i realized your arrival here because i missed you every time,i saved you in my eye look into my eyes, you rule the soul of my life, i have same respect, my love, i carry same love my eyes are browsing only you,i am missing you lot my love, look into my eyes, cant u spot yourself here after i found you in my retina, i termed u my replica you being synonymy of my life, i found you as my destina in every night, i used to get u as my angel at moon night.. i open my eye before sun arrives, be the reason you might i am alive today only for you, alive just because of you i love you, pari, tell me, cant u see in my eye even few? my heart beats for you, my brain wants to remember only you my sweet pie, tell me, cant u see any truth in my eye...? i cant express my love on my own, please understand my eye if you had...

Below the relation with almighty, below you and dad Above other, there was someone finding whom I was glad My dear mum, the girl is one whom I termed my dearest pal That one taught me to get success in every of my down fall No mum, it was not that your love lacked any needed emotion, But she was one companying me to take me to my destination I am always grateful for your inspiration, thank u so much But you know mum, for that girl, I even prayed by going church After her arrival I never felt losing like a day, I never lost again We ignored our past, accepted the present without any bargain It was not that I didn’t found you to share in my needed time But still, she knows every privacy and secrecy things about mine..! I was not late to share the space of my heart, terming her ‘pari’ She is the need of my life, mum, these words hurt u, I beg sorry We started to plan our world, keeping both you and dad with us She promised me, “I’ll never let your tear be formed int...

Aakriti in my Dream Life was full of nightmare that I wanted to forget, trying to live a new day My tears had made me bath my entire body; willing to be out of this pond Got to listen, smiles makes us feel younger, was hunting for a reason again I was cheated by most worlds, still with a dream; I will feel heaven one day Life was really sad, one night an angel came in my life and touched me... I asked “aren’t u same class stranger I am enriched? She replied “NO” “I am the one u were waiting to feel, people recognizes myself as aakriti Sent by alpha and omega, here for your world, think me as only yours” I hurt myself to confirm if it was not a dream, she bandaged my pain parts. I was happy to get her touch, and I was happy to call myself as her friend. I smiled, because I had reason why I smiled, I knew for whom to smile... simply for that loving girl who taught me to live my life in laugh and smile... since we meet. i included her in my smile, she inc...

hi dear friends.... bishwako garib rastra haru matra hoina, aaja hamro desh nikai nai pachadi padhi sakeko cha.. din dinai ko banda... din dinai ko hadthal.... ani corruption ra abuses le garda aaja nepali haru lhe munto tala parnu pareko cha... bible ma bhaniye jhai yaha jati birudha jati, dharma birudha dharma, ani maanish birudha maanish khada hunechan...... sacchai nai samsar ko antya ko samay aai pugeko cha... so my friend.. confess yourself.... confess all the guilty that u have done.. and our lord of heaven will never let u down... believe me, for the sake of your happiness, my lord will always bless u and your sorroundings... stilll.... the most neccessity for today is to pray for our country and pray for every people who are obstacles for our country... prathana garau hamro desh ani hamro desh chalaune neta haruko lagi.... so that we could be out of all these tragety and we everyone can live a peaceful life.... we nepali are known as people of missionary in the name of lord......