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~~And its christmas again~~~

Its christmas again............ Its again the time to celebrate birthday of "king of kings", on this very happier moment, we might be busy in our special party and inviting our special guests, but somewhere we might be forgetting some of the thing which are part of christmas celebration... so lets not forget the following three in our personal enjoyment and happiness 1) of course, mother Mary, who had given birth to Jesus christ.... 2) in this personal enjoyment, most people forget jesus christ too... lets not forget his sacrification of life for every of us... 3) and and and.................... lets not forget the cross where he had died...... and because christmas celebration is still incomplete if we havent realize the presence of happiness because of this cross............... still, are we ready to celebrate christmas? lets check out some of the thing and be sure we have the following attitude in our life... Forgiveness is what the cross teaches us in this special day...

~~~ and it is not X-mas, it is Christmas ~~~

Christmas coming.... and i find many friends wishing me for this grand festival, and they ask me my plan about how you celebrating your festival? To reply them the factual answer, i answer them, "we have organize a fellowship program on that day, so fellowship program followed with praying and then message from pastor" only that suraj? no any special party? "yeah, after finishing the service, church also have arranged for lunch, so we will be attending lunch program by whole church...." its definitely a curiosity to ask how do we celebrate the festival, but there are something mis-conception in normal people and perhaps even christian people too... DO you know what do you mean by X? it means as 'unknown' and as X-ray? it means an unknown ray.. . then what do u really mean by X-mas? 'mas' mean the sacrifice and X-mas from this way will give the meaning sacrifice by unknown ......! ! ! is it really a sacrifice by unknown ? No, it was not a sacrifice by

Black beauty on first day of college & her first smile

Black beauty on first day of college & her first smile I was learning. Day by day different lessons of daily life were teaching me, and I was excited to learn myself in different mode of journey. Through the entire medium of physically, mentally and spiritually, I was determined to be the most matured human. But along with my maturation, I never knew that I was searching someone who would add perfection in my life. Simply, the girl of my life, and the girl of my dream, in summary, I used to term her as ‘the one, only and last love of my life’. I never knew how would have been that girl, because the every new face I used to browse, even if they were termed as “one of the beautiful” by my friend and outer world, I had replied them, “she is yet to come in my life” Being irritated from my words, and perhaps being crazier to choice of my heart, my friend had asked me the numerous times, “it seems, you are searching an angel from heaven, let us know what is your type? Being no late to

Fragment of fragrance

Fragment of fragrance It was a sweet rose. Yeah, apparently rose are considered to be sweet and they have its own existence in the kingdom of flowers, but even in the presence of beautiful queen and king, they are given that super symbol which plays vital role in the reconciliation of relation. This time it was a red one, which is given a designation of “ symbol of love ”. Before this, I had plucked lots of white ones on the initial days, and then as distance of our relation got on decreasing, I transformed my environment to decorate with the color of longest wavelength . She used to love being salaried her presence by red-rose, and so I was addicted of giving this wonderful gift to most beautiful girl of my life. No matter, how sharp were throne below its petal, I never expressed pinch of its point with anyone, just to be pleasured by her smile. Earlier that day, I never expressed any thoughts of getting that small beautiful component nor did I do it that day, because I believed I was

HIV AIDS and my responsibility ? ? ?

i all.. today is World Aids day.... yeah, i know many of them are still giving careless to this day because they feel they know everything about Hiv Aids and they feel they are already well mannered... My dear friends, just writing some words here.... if u are reading this diary, please read till the end.... first let me start with four modes of transportation of HIV virus... they are 1) having unsafe sex with person infected from HIV 2) getting blood from the person of HIV infected 3) using the same syringe that is used by infected people 4) from pregnant mother to baby getting born... now.... the post is still not finished... i thought its my responsibility to give all some information....... Among the four modes of transportation, more than 80% of new HIV AIDS infection is because of sexual contact.... still, we have only one life and once HIV infects us, it is not curable.. suppose if we are badly hurt in accident, and in hospital, if we need blood, we are given the blood of any un

~~That forgivness which i could never gift her~~

That forgiveness which I could never gift her I forgave your thousand mistakes just because of your one true steps really improved my life, I couldn’t forgive your small mistakes even in presence of your thousand true steps, because that one small mistake might had destructed me… Well.. These two phrases are different one said on different condition…. Let us look one verse from bible…. For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly father will also forgive you But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your father forgive your trespasses. Mathew 6: 14, 15 From the early stages of my life, I myself was fully aware of these words, and I used to think me myself that yes, I should forgive the every of people of my life who might had hurt me knowingly or unknowingly. But despite being regular in church and being strong in praying, I couldn’t give this particular forgiveness to that sweet gesture of my life. Yes, she was a wave because she was the one to change me

You are god sent angel for me and my life

diary written on 26th September 2009.... FOR all the friendship u shared, FOR all the ways u cared, FOR all the time u were there YOU were special & beyond compare just wan a tell you, take care time may not be the same again, nor your heart shall be the same again, i wish each days were just as earlier we had spend before if not that, i wish my heart be the same blank as it was before Today, the day of 26th september 2009, as one of the most awaited day of my life from last one year..... yeah, i was waiting for this day wishing i could add some smiles and joy on your most happiest day. those moments spent with you are already marked as one of the most beautiful chapters of my life and i hardly remember any hour in my consciousness where i had not invited you for a talk in my mind and my soul.... i liked calling you as "angel of my life" and u simply accepted the designation which i had given for you. There were even many moments where i had termed you as "aakriti&qu

के यो हुन सक्छ ?

जयमसि बाइबलका ती बचनहरुलाई आफ्नो मुखबात अध्यन गर्दा कहिले काही मलाई यस्तो पनि लाग्दथ्यो की के बाइबल का बचन हरु हाम्रो जीवनमा साच्चै पुरा हुन्छन् र? येशुप्रभु हाम्रो संसारमा आएर हामीलाई पाप बात त बचाउनु भयो, तर के मानिषको जीवनमा परिवर्तन हुन्छ र ? स्वर्गबाट आएको बाणीले सावलको रूपलाई पावलमा परिवर्तन गरिदियो अनि पावल आफैमा माहान राज्यको प्रचारमा अघि बढे तर के आजको संसारमा यस्तो हुन सक्छ र? यहाँ येशु को चेलाहरू ले मानिस लाई जीवंत बचन सुनाउन निक्कैनै भेदभाव सहनु परेको छ यस्तो समय मा के यो संभव छ र की हात हतियार बोकेर हिदेको मानिष प्रभु को राज्य मा काम आउन सक्छ के हजूरहरुसंग कुनै यस्तो उधारण छ? मसंग छ । अनि यसलाई पढेर तपाईहरु मा पनि परिवर्तन आउने छ

pari, look at my eyes....

for my pari.. look at my eye.... remembering you, my pari,one who showed me way in darkness my eyes followed you, my heart, and so brain, to be fearless i forgot pain in my life after i realized your arrival here because i missed you every time,i saved you in my eye look into my eyes, you rule the soul of my life, i have same respect, my love, i carry same love my eyes are browsing only you,i am missing you lot my love, look into my eyes, cant u spot yourself here after i found you in my retina, i termed u my replica you being synonymy of my life, i found you as my destina in every night, i used to get u as my angel at moon night.. i open my eye before sun arrives, be the reason you might i am alive today only for you, alive just because of you i love you, pari, tell me, cant u see in my eye even few? my heart beats for you, my brain wants to remember only you my sweet pie, tell me, cant u see any truth in my eye...? i cant express my love on my own, please understand my eye if you had

poem - i still love her mum..!

Below the relation with almighty, below you and dad Above other, there was someone finding whom I was glad My dear mum, the girl is one whom I termed my dearest pal That one taught me to get success in every of my down fall No mum, it was not that your love lacked any needed emotion, But she was one companying me to take me to my destination I am always grateful for your inspiration, thank u so much But you know mum, for that girl, I even prayed by going church After her arrival I never felt losing like a day, I never lost again We ignored our past, accepted the present without any bargain It was not that I didn’t found you to share in my needed time But still, she knows every privacy and secrecy things about mine..! I was not late to share the space of my heart, terming her ‘pari’ She is the need of my life, mum, these words hurt u, I beg sorry We started to plan our world, keeping both you and dad with us She promised me, “I’ll never let your tear be formed int

Aakriti in my Dream

Aakriti in my Dream Life was full of nightmare that I wanted to forget, trying to live a new day My tears had made me bath my entire body; willing to be out of this pond Got to listen, smiles makes us feel younger, was hunting for a reason again I was cheated by most worlds, still with a dream; I will feel heaven one day Life was really sad, one night an angel came in my life and touched me... I asked “aren’t u same class stranger I am enriched? She replied “NO” “I am the one u were waiting to feel, people recognizes myself as aakriti Sent by alpha and omega, here for your world, think me as only yours” I hurt myself to confirm if it was not a dream, she bandaged my pain parts. I was happy to get her touch, and I was happy to call myself as her friend. I smiled, because I had reason why I smiled, I knew for whom to smile... simply for that loving girl who taught me to live my life in laugh and smile... since we meet. i included her in my smile, she inc

for our country nepal...

hi dear friends.... bishwako garib rastra haru matra hoina, aaja hamro desh nikai nai pachadi padhi sakeko cha.. din dinai ko banda... din dinai ko hadthal.... ani corruption ra abuses le garda aaja nepali haru lhe munto tala parnu pareko cha... bible ma bhaniye jhai yaha jati birudha jati, dharma birudha dharma, ani maanish birudha maanish khada hunechan...... sacchai nai samsar ko antya ko samay aai pugeko cha... so my friend.. confess yourself.... confess all the guilty that u have done.. and our lord of heaven will never let u down... believe me, for the sake of your happiness, my lord will always bless u and your sorroundings... stilll.... the most neccessity for today is to pray for our country and pray for every people who are obstacles for our country... prathana garau hamro desh ani hamro desh chalaune neta haruko lagi.... so that we could be out of all these tragety and we everyone can live a peaceful life.... we nepali are known as people of missionary in the name of lord...

a sensitive poem- I orphan.........?

the poem here may not look good, but its feeling is filled with up infinite sorrow.. a boy filled up with his numerous relatives is called as orphan because he don't have his parents today, and he don't have money today.. actually this is not a story about the street boy, but it is about that boy who is called as orphan by society, still he declines the fact that he is orphan and he says tomorrow he will be rich person, and he shall show all his relatives that he was not a useless guy... he shall show this world that he still has humanity by which he will serve the needed one.... I orphan? Born here on the same world, enriched with numerous relatives, legs of mine moves targeting to discover some unfound creatives I too have heart, have promised to kiss aim from inner spirit carrying humanity, to help one of need, though i was not merit But, But hey my dear friend, my relatives are like as if all are dead my body is strugling as that of fish out of water

As like that candle light

candle light... like those candle, beside those candle lives here two of our life a very simple, an extraordinary one, but a romantic living life we tried to understood each other even in this blackness... unmeasurable deep is our relation despite lacking lightness.. candle is like our each other life, burning for someone we live... that light is like our life, with determination of life is to give... we still trusted each other, in this blind night of candle light we still respect each other, in this world dieing with some fight the every candle light dinner, had made our relation much strength the every candle light gossip, had leaded us to the much inner gate.. alas! if our life would be like candle, we could burn for each other alas! if we could produce light, we could again live for each other you depended on me, i relied my life on you, we were for each other wasn't that was candle light moment, we were dreaming for each other i wanted to be burn out so that i could give u li

somebody wrote a shayri for me...

very very happy.. because finally that dream came in my life where i was expecting someone to come and write about me.. my dear sweet sheetal has send me a shayri which she had written for me.. i liked it from all my heart.. i want to share it with all my frens.. Kisi ki nazaar na lage hamare dosti par baas yahi dua hai khuda se, Hum adhore hote agar saath na pate dosti aap jayese yaar se…… Umaar bhar dua karege ki kash who deen bhi aye jab hum aapse mile aur mere hone ka ahesas dilaye Apni yari ko bhulana mere baas ki baat nahi….vada hai dosti ka Nibhane ka vada adhore jhodna to mere liye jaise khuda se koi rishta todna hoga…. thank you so much my dear sheetal... this shall be often remembered by me.. till the end of my life.. thanks a lot...

नेपाली poem

दुख छडा छदै कति खुशियाली छन जीवनका यी पानाहरू । हार पाउदा पाउदै कति जितको स्वोरूप छन यात्रा का ती पाहिलाहरू ॥ घृणा हुडा हुदै कति मायालु मुटुले बोकेका छन ती अस्तित्वहरू । मनिसका ती हस्तहरूमा किना रहन्न छाला बिना ती नंगहरु